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I haven't been doing so hot lately. I've had a long run of being overtired, achy, gained some weight, listless, and kind of overwhelmed.
After some careful analysis, I'm pretty sure it's sleep related. I've taken some steps to deal with it, too.
Last night I got to bed early, and had a very careful, deliberate routine about it. I have sleep apnea, and was very careful to fit my mask properly, too. I twiddled with my cpap a bit too.
I slept like a champ. Today I feel marvelous. I think I'm on to something.
Stumbled across a great article this morning filled with quotes by the Dalai Lama.
Some of them are witty and others profound.
So I had a frustrating work day yesterday, which led to introspection, trouble getting to sleep, a bunch of anxiety about a handful of related money/career/life things, a late wake up, and a missed workout.
What an auspicious start to my day, right?
A friend of mine messaged me just now though after I followed his cat on Twitter (just roll with it, ok?) and I started to tell him my litany of woes, and got his sympathies.
As I did, I remembered something, which I told him.
"It's okay. I know the drill. Much of my suffering in this is self-imposed, and the result of expectation. Just moving through it."
As soon as I said it, I knew it to be the truth. That doesn't mean I snap my fingers and don't feel anguish. That wouldn't be human! I recognize what I did, and am doing. I'm moving through pain I mostly made myself.
It's not easy, but it's worthwhile. I already feel better somewhat, too.
I think that's the truth of human existence - a constant series of waves we surf.
That's a valuable skill to have.
Bad days are relative, right? I mean it's not like I'm getting bitten by a shark as I hang from the rescue ladder of a helicopter.
My wife texted me today to let me know about an upcoming date night she has planned for us.
I don't know what it is. I have exactly ZERO details, other than when it is (the 17th of August) and to be home by a certain time.
I love not knowing!