I’m an early riser. Even on my days off, it’s rare for me to stay in bed much past six. Today was no exception. I popped out of bed, thoughts of Project Longbottom swirling in my head. I got up, got my shower, got into training pants (as well as the rest of my clothes). Then I gave Mama a good morning kiss. We performed a private little every day ritual we have, then I tucked her back into bed and headed downstairs.

A few hours later, long past when I’d made my own breakfast, done a few hours of research, coding, and some chatting with friends, she trooped downstairs, and into a recliner for a relaxing late morning of video-gaming.

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I hit a certain stopping point in my research, where I really decided I needed a snuggle, and maybe a cup of tea, and came out to the living room for the first of those. I sat on the floor by Mama’s feet, which she rested on me, as I sat my head in her lap, enjoying the closeness.

After a time, she asked me to make her some scrambled eggs. I got right to it. I decided to really do the job, using real butter, dill weed, some cheddar cheese.

I got them into a nice bowl, served them to her, and set about making my tea, a nice London Fog (sort of the cappuccino of tea). After which I showed it to Mama, to see if she wanted to try it. I said I wanted to get back to my coding, and said told me alright, and tried her eggs. Which she liked very much indeed.

She told me, grinning, that she thought I was very good to her. And I told her I’m her boy, and that I live to serve her.

Which is absolutely true.

The whole thing made me so happy I decided to write this post. This sort of thing, this is part of that greater truth I’ve been slowly discovering for months now. Yes, we’re kinky people, who enjoy scenes, enjoy play. Mama gave me a wonderful and very thorough caning at a party we went to back in February. That stuff was, is, and remains a part of our lives. But there’s this other part, the day-in, day-out course of living our truth.

It’s filled with learning, and with joy.

First there was the part where Mama told me, more than asked me, to make her breakfast. I love when she tells me to do things. I love doing them for her, too. For the briefest moment, my brain did the mental juggling of analysis, tagging and evaluating that “working on code” and “having some tea” were both not as important as “thing Mama told me to do.”

Once that was handily computed, and I did that task, it was like my whole body and soul were set upon it, and in the doing, I felt more myself. I was describing to some kink friends the other day how our dynamic has become a whole lot more m/s, how both of us consider me to be Mama’s property. I know this, but there are moments where I really, all the way down feel it. This was absolutely one of them.

Every single day, I feel like we’re both growing, both learning This Thing We Are Doing. We’re both getting more comfortable with it, and learning how it works.

It’s bliss.

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So one of the bigger revelations to me about living a service based lifestyle is how, for the most part, it’s not a big, ongoing sex scene. It’s just a different mode of living, altogether.

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I’ll give you an example. On Friday I was working from home. About two thirds of the way through my workday, I started thinking about what I would cook for us for dinner. I ended up settling on a recipe I found for apple-mustard chicken tenderloins.

Yes, they really did look like that. They turned out wonderfully.

After work, I rushed out to the store to pick the stuff up, came home and changed into my training pants and pajamas, and quite carefully set an alarm to remind myself to get cooking about an hour before Missy got home, and then… got caught up first playing video games and then chatting with an old friend.

Oops!

When Missy got home, hungry, and dinner wasn’t ready, she was a bit cross with me, and scolded me. But I promised her I could get dinner together quickly, and did so. And as I said, it turned out to be quite good.

After dinner, she decided she wanted to take a bath, and headed upstairs to do so.

Then she had a wonderful idea. She called me to follow her upstairs, and after the bath was ready, had me use a soapy bath brush (the same one she spanks me with, incidentally) on her back and her feet. This was magical. She felt so good, and I felt so good making her feel that way. I got very little, and the littler version of me felt quite proud to have an actual job to do for mama, and one which we turned out to be quite good at.

She decided there was no sense in my pajamas or training pants getting wet, so she had me strip out of everything before I began.

Afterwards, she decided I needed to be in the bathtub too. She had me come in and lay down where she had just been, and then she bathed me, and rewarded me for my good service, in an appropriately ahem, fulfilling way.

Feel free to use your imagination there.

Afterward, she diapered me for bed, and we drifted off to sleep together, cuddling, wrapped in the warm embrace of our love for one another, and this dynamic that we share.

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So I had this realization today. It was after work, I was home, and chatting with my friend Bunny. She’s like me, an age player, who also has a service relationship with her big, her Daddy. We were talking about the nature of service, doing chores, and how it makes us feel.

I was cleaning the kitchen as we chatted, taking breaks to snap off a quick response to her as I went. I had finished loading the dishwasher when I sent this:

It’s hard work for her to take care of me, because in a way, I’m a boy who never grows up, never will. So it’s really important that I actually do grow in some ways, however I can.

Become a better listener, become well behaved, actually respond to, learn from, and be shaped by the way she disciplines me. I think one of the pivotal differences between play and service is taking it seriously.

After that, I saw that while I had loaded the dishwasher, and set it running, there were still dishes left over, including a big pizza pan which really doesn’t fit well in there anyhow.

so I washed that sucker by hand, as well as the rest of the things which hadn’t yet been cleaned. I dried them and put them away. The kitchen is sparkling like the top of the Chrysler Building, as the expression goes.

And I feel like I’m making my best effort to be the very best behaved boy I can be for my mama. It feels damn good.

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