This morning I woke up, jumped out of bed, and startled to hustle about. I had a lot to do this morning, and was obsessing over some things. Financial stuff, business stuff, day job stuff, health stuff. My mind was a whirling storm of must-do's, shouldn't-do's, wants, expectations, all sorts of shenpa.
I took some time in the shower to follow my breath, and detach from my thoughts, to observe them. Slowly, the storm in my head began to settle.
I reshuffled my priorities, realizing I could work on Project Drummond tonight, and that I really wanted to pack my lunch. That's because hunting for keto friendly food near my office is a pain in the ass. It's also expensive, and I like having the control over what I'm eating. That way I can make good choices before I have to eat.
So I resolved to make myself a leftover salad. Roast beef, cheddar, romaine, lettuce, tomatoes, and some olive oil, salt and pepper dressing.
I used my awesome kitchen scale to measure everything in grams. That was amazing, because my scale does grams easily, and every food in my carb tracking software, Carb Manager Pro, seems to have a listing for it by gram. It was SO easy. As you can see, with a 2g breakfast, and a 7g lunch, I'm totally rocking staying inside my 25g limit for the day.
The nice part of that whole process was I got to focus and slow down even more. I chopped vegetables, tore lettuce, weighed ingredients. While I was doing all this I most certainly was NOT thinking about all the storm-tossed-items I'd awoken to. It's not that I was consciously avoiding thinking of them. Rather, I'd put them aside to be in the moment.
There's this saying of the Dalai Lama's I quote all the time that everyone should meditate for 30 minutes a day, unless you really don't have the time. In that case, he advises, you should meditate for an hour.
It's true. As I sit writing this, I'm calm. Yes, I have a lot to do today, yes, it's going to be busy. And I will deal with what I need to do, one thing at a time. But I don't have to worry about that now.
I'm present, here. (Except for a tiny pleasure seeking shenpa about how good that salad's going to be!)