I've been on cloud nine lately, because of a phenomenon poly people all know about, called NRE.  That stands for New Relationship Energy.

That's because I'm officially dating someone new.  Some of you may know her, her scene name is Squee.

"New Relationship" is kind of a lie, though.  Squee and I have known each other for several years now.  We started as friends, and over the years realized we really understood each other.  We felt this close kinship, and easy ability to talk to each other about anything and everything.

In the past few months. we've leaned on one another a lot, about all sort of things.  Eventually, we realized we were more than friends, that we loved one another.

Well, we had loved one another for a long time.  But this was a new way.  

You know how it makes me feel? It makes me want to squee.

 

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AuthorMako Allen
Categories365 Gratitude

Sometimes my gratitude isn't one big thing, just a good chain of nice little things.

That was today.

First, I got to have a much needed FaceTime call with my little girl, Katiebug.  I miss her, and she misses me.  We spent a good half hour or so just being schmoopy and loving to one another, and talking about all sorts of good ways to connect and spend time with each other.  It really felt good.

Second, as Missy and I are getting ready to go out to our friend Peanut's daughter's very first birthday party ever, the cats decided to gift me with the elusive double-lap cuddle.

So nice!

So nice!

Lastly, at the birthday party, amongst the food they put out was a heaping big platter of smoked salmon.  That's a huge treat for me, especially now that I'm pescetarian, and can't have most of the party food that you'd expect.

Score!

Score!

What a nice bunch of good things.

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AuthorMako Allen
Categories365 Gratitude

So on Friday, Squee and I were chatting.  (This is something we do on days ending in -y, lately.)  We're both fond of that sort of overthinky, deeply analytical sort of thinking I call noodling.  

She's been my co-noodler for a while now.  The particular thing we were noodling about that day was about my growing interest in mindful communication.  When you're aware of not just what you think, but also how you think it (and share it), some interesting transformative things occur.

In discussing it, we stumbled across a sort of math proof about it, that I call The Squee Variance.  It's named after her, because she's the one who thought of it.

(I can just imagine your rising sense of panic here, dear reader.  Wait, overthinking and math?! Um, I've got to go organize my sock drawer!  Put the socks, down, I promise this won't be awful.)

What Squee noticed was that stupid things are generally worse (lesser) than awesome ones.  That's written like this:

stoooopid < AWESOME

Here's a real world example.  Being stuck in traffic is not anywhere near as fun as say, talking to someone you love on the phone.  (On a related note, I often talk to people I love on the phone while I am driving because DC traffic is as reliable as breathing oxygen.  It's not "Will I get stuck in traffic?" so much as "how bad is it going to be today?")

That formula however, that's not the variance.  She also noticed that any such inequality can be transversely parsed in a positive way.  That is, if something is less than something else, that something else is also greater than the other.  That's written this way:

AWESOME > stoooopid

Let's get back to that real world example.  Sometimes as I'm on one of these talk-and-drive little misadventures, traffic snarls up even worse.  That in turn means I get to talk to the person I love longer.  More time to connect with someone is definitely greater than the hassle of being stuck in traffic.

BLAM!  Gratitude math.  When you do the transform, you are transformed.  

So, we're bathing in our mutual noodly goodness over this, when my phone pings, and I get the Word of the Day.

The word was "eudemonic".  Eudemonic means:

1. pertaining or conducive to happiness.
2. pertaining to eudemonics or eudemonism.

I immediately share this with her, and we get all twirled up in brain spaghetti over it.  It's such a funny, wonderful word, because it sounds like censure, but means just the opposite.  

Eudemonic conversation (which we were just having) sounds an awful lot like bitching about an argument, but actually means talk that makes you happy.

Like the one we had.

Mind blown.

 

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AuthorMako Allen
Categories365 Gratitude