One of the things I really love about being an age player is how we often repurpose the stuff of childhood for our own amusement.  

Being an adult who hasn't put aside childlike things isn't exclusively the province of ageplay either. There's a growing social trend called being a rejuvenile, coined by the author Christopher Nox in a book by the same name.  (I haven't read it yet, but mean to.). Rejuveniles like very many of the same things they liked as kids, and which many ageplayers like, too. 

That's good news for me. It shows up in some odd places, too. Just this morning as I was waiting for my train, I saw some very interesting graffiti on the side of a tanker train. 

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It took me a second, but I realized I knew that purple beret and sunglasses wearing redhead. It's none other than Judy Funnie, sister to the title character of the cartoon Doug. 

I love that stuff like this happens. It's like the whole world is in on the gag that I'm not entirely a grownup. 

Maybe no one is.  

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AuthorMako Allen
Categories365 Gratitude

I'm sure you've all seen this little chestnut before.  It is true, as I get older I do like taking naps, and getting spanked.

I also enjoy having homework.  Typically, this is homework I wind up giving myself.  I have homework primarily in two big areas: philosophy, and technology.  

I'm a huge fan of the philosophers, authors, and speakers Pema Chödrön and Alan Watts. I frequently listen to Alan Watts lectures when I swim, or run.  I also love Pema's book When Things Fall Apart, which I recommend anyone and everyone read. 

Today's been a day of technical homework for me.  I've been learning about the Twitter Bootstrap framework, because I want to use it for a personal technical project, a behavior management tool for kinky people in general, and age players in particular.  It's awesome.  It makes for super clean, pretty, and functional front ends.  

I'm a big fan of having my ends clean, after all.

I started out this morning digging into a twitter bootstrap course I bought, but then stopped to watch a presentation about it, from a Grails developer.  This one, if you're so inclined.  Watching the presentation was terrific.  I came up with a lot of good questions and ideas, and I'm really looking forward to experimenting with the technology, just for the sheer fun of it.  Part of why this is all so great for me is that it's not just the eventual end product of this all that's good, but the journey along the way.  I love being creative, love learning, and love stretching myself.

I'm grateful for my homework.    

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AuthorMako Allen
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Went back to the gym today, and walked three miles on a treadmill.  It wasn't bittersweet at all, rather it was like coming back to an old friend.  I'm sure I'll be running plenty in the days to come.  The whole process was filled with revisiting old familiar things:

  • I put on my favorite sweatpants, which I have been running in for years. 
  • I had good gear to use - good, quality running socks, good shoes 
  • I was listening to a familiar, and favorite audiobook, David Eddings' Enchanters' End Game

It felt good to do.  I walked three miles, bringing my #365Miles total up to 5 miles.  Not bad for the 3rd day of the year.  

My gym is designed to encourage you.  Snappy, high bpm music plays in the locker rooms and on the gym floor.  The walls are decorated with quotes and encouraging statements, like "Leap and the net will appear."

I remember years ago, before I had first found running and really dug into it, I was both excited and terrified to do it.  I had no idea if I would be able to do it.  There's no question - I've lost a fair amount of fitness this past year.  But it's exciting to leap towards getting it back.

One big decision I did come to, as a result of all this is that my experimentation using a fitbit has come to an end.  

I think that wearing it has had the opposite effect from what I wanted.  The fitbit  monitors your steps all day long.  For work reasons, I have to take it off when I'm at my desk, which is kind of a drag.  But I also have come to realize that wearing it actually encourages a sort of mindlessness, an "auto-pilot" mindset in me, that isn't in my favor.  

Don't get me wrong, I'm ALL ABOUT metrics.  I love them.  I have a lovely, very fancy Garmin running watch that I will wear when I do run and walk.  And I'm more committed than ever to using Lose-It to track my nutrition and exercise.  The thing I see about the fitbit is, it makes me sort of mentally lazy about it.  That's not a device problem, nor is it a Mako problem.  It's just how I'm wired.  I need the focused attention of tracking my workout explicitly, without relying on the "background chatter" of my calories/steps burned by daily life.  

I'm grateful that I can return to what works for me.

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AuthorMako Allen
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So yesterday, as I said I would, I got started in earnest on my behavior management application, WeMinder.  I scoped out what I thought was a reasonable initial data model, drew up a raw pen-and-paper ER diagram between the tables, and got started creating what are called the Domains, the central objects that make up the heart of the system.

It's not as impressive as it sounds.  All told, it's like four files, and maybe 60 lines of code.  But it's a start.  The development framework I'm using is called Grails.  It's awesome.  I love it.  

I also hate it a little bit.  It can be very persnickety about certain things.  I found out that you really can't name domains "Action" for some reason.  I also was having a little trouble with the project scaffolding.  

Scaffolding is this awesome rapid-prototyping feature of Grails - you toss this one line into the controller for your domain, and WHAM BANG YOW OTHER SOUND EFFECT - a fully functioning basic user interface comes out the other side.

It looks kind of like this:

Awesome, right?  It's nowhere near perfect, and I'm going to customize the living heck out of it, until it looks very pretty and does a lot more stuff.  But you gotta start somewhere.

Scaffolding like this is designed for CRUD.  (No, not that it looks like crud, although granted, it kinda does.)  CRUD is an acronym for the 4 basic database operations you can do. Create, Read, Update, Delete.  It's good for administrative stuff, and for when you're just getting started building an application.

But, this crud has to actually WORK first.  And yesterday, it didn't.  I could add potential actions, like snuggling, or getting a spanking, but they just wouldn't list properly.  What's more, I couldn't make any entries, because they're relationally tied to the actions.  Unacceptable!

I banged it at for several hours trying to figure out what it was.  It turned out I had one line of code in there I just didn't need.  This one.

After a bunch of tech book surfing and googling, I had an epiphany early this morning at my mistake, and I fixed it.

I'm super grateful that I can get myself over my own crud.

 

 

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AuthorMako Allen
Categories365 Gratitude