So here's a semi-not-secret secret.  In my writing, many of my characters are baed on real people I know, at least in part.  Sometimes that part is very, very big.  When I know someone really well, or there's some aspect about them which really speaks to me, they begin to take up room inside my head.

One such person is my friend Aiden.  Aiden Carlin, one of the main characters of my novel, Concerning Littleton, is soundly and squarely based on the real Aiden, who is amazing.  

Here's Aiden's "official bio"

“Try-sexual” by nature, I enjoy pushing my boundaries or deconstructing them altogether as a dodecahedron of passion, play, and desire. Using school and life as my classroom, I have spent the last decade (and then some) learning about myself and my passions by delving into love and relationships, sexuality, gender, kink, polyamory, spirituality and more. I advocate for authenticity in all areas of life – especially sexuality – and enjoy inspiring curiosity and exploration, as well as informed decision-making as a sex-positive nurse-midwife, sexuality educator, sacred intimate, model, blogger, bootblack, Cuddle Party Facilitator-in-Training, founder of the Judgment Free Health Care Providers Resource & Directory, as well as the host of a monthly sex-positive social gathering in NYC called Prohibition NYC. As a "Kinky Catalyst," I tend to encourage debauchery wherever I go. If I'm not organizing Cuddle Parties, Fist-A-Paloozas, Safer Sex Orgies, or Sensual Feasts, I am generally out and about orchestrating mischief or silliness as a Mad Scientist or Little. I positively love being a facilitator of deviant fun and mischief. :)

Aiden has been instrumental in my own growth as a person.  Aiden's transgender, and gender fluid.  I first met them back when they were presenting female, and found them to be plucky, quirky, silly, sexy, and fun.  I was instantly charmed.  As Aiden progressed through several gender transitions, that's a feeling that stuck with me.  I was attracted to the essential Aiden, the person inside, not how or as who they presented.  

I came to realize that I wasn't straight, because I was attracted to Aiden regardless of their gender.  That didn't mean I was gay, or bi either, but something else entirely.

So, here's another super important thing you need to know about Aiden.  

For the past several years, they've been in school to become a midwife.  They graduated just a little while ago, and passed the licensing boards too but due to mistakes on the part of their school's financial aid office, owe about $6,000 in additional debt.  This debt is preventing them from getting their transcript, literally the VERY LAST STEP between them and practicing their career!  

This will not do.  It's a grave inequity.  I've already donated to help them, as have many other folks, and they're about 40% of the way towards correcting this terrible mistake.  

Operation: Sex-Positive Midwife is the website where folks have been helping Aiden.

I'd be ever so grateful if you could help, too.

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Our girl Katiebug got me this sharktastic new hat.  Isn't it awesome?

I'm grateful for her, and grateful for it.  This is going to make a rocking good podcasting hat.  It's as comfy as it is silly.  I love it.

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It's early.

Sunrise isn't for another 45 minutes or so.

I've got a beautifully long day ahead of me, filled with work, writing, and podcasting until midnight or so.  

I feel positively wealthy with time.  

I love this feeling.  I love waking up, rested, and feeling like an empty vessel waiting to be filled. I have only the loosest sense of what the day will bring.  Anything could happen.

I was saying to a friend on Twitter yesterday, who was lamenting some currently-and-possibly-soon-to-be-happening misfortunes that uncertainty is what makes life beautiful.  

Sure, there are some "very-likelies" - like if you take a breathe in, and hold it, it's pretty likely that you'll be exhaling next.  Shove yourself off your chair.  Pretty likely, you'll meet the floor, next.  But those things are trivial, tiny.  In the bigger expanse of your life, things are positively vague.  I remember when I was in high school, and looking at colleges, I told my mother I had no interest in the Washington, DC area.  I insisted there was simply no way I would wind up there.

I've lived here for over 20 years now.  

There are these two Lao-tzu quotes I adore, that speak to the beauty of uncertainty, and what it means for one's life.

"If you do not change direction, you may wind up where you are heading"

"When I let go of what I am, I become that which I may yet be."

How beautiful.

 

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So, here's the thing. I'm Mako Allen, podcaster, author, age player.  I'm also NOT that guy. In my "other life", I'm married, live outside Washington, DC, work in technology, and am owned by two very lovely cats. 

It's a bit like being a superhero. Often as I'm riding the train, I'm doing podcast producer work from my phone or tablet, booking guests, returning show email, or writing fiction.  

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It can be a little weird. I'll be in some boring meeting, talking about release schedules or code debt, and my brain is off zooming through the kinky skies,  looking for the next thing I need to do in my other life.  Sometimes I feel like I'm just PRETENDING to be the vanilla me. 

That's not a great metaphor, but you'll have to forgive me, food metaphors are my jam. (See?)

Weird as it is, I'm grateful for the duality. While it can be odd, and tiring, it makes my life very exciting.  

Some days, I don't feel like my day job is going anywhere. It's slow work to gain technical proficiency, and is often thankless.  

But I don't have to wait on my dreams of doing meaningful work with my life.

A quick duck into a phone booth, loosen the tie, and it's up, up, and away.  The phone booth is usually my cell phone or iPad, and the superhero outfit is usually a diaper, but you get the idea. 

I get a lot of joy out of my duality, and I'm grateful for it.  

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