New beginnings are so many things:

  • Exciting
  • Terrifying
  • Filled with promise
  • Overwhelming

I've needed to make this site, this blog for a while now.  For many, reasons, too.  I've had a lifelong fascination with journaling.  I used to use live journal, kept private journals through word processing, used the various other social media, too.  In fact, I still use twitter, where I'm @makoallen, and Google+, too.  All these things have been great.  But they still fell short.

For many reasons, I needed a place to be able to really stretch out.  I talk about a LOT of stuff in my journaling.  My blog, and this site, are meant for many purposes.  Here you'll hear me talk about the projects I do that have meaning in my life, like my books, the podcast I cohost with my brother/poly-partner Spacey and his wife Mae, other fiction projects I'm up to, too.  

But there's yet more.  A really big part of who I am as a person is my daily practice of meditation and contemplation.  It's not formal meditation per se, where I sit in lotus position and float a foot off the ground.  (Although I DO, do that from time to time.  Well, the sitting part, not the telekinetic hovering - maybe with enough practice, you never know.)  Rather my meditation and contemplation often happen in the stream of what I'm doing.  I'll go swimming or running, or just be going about my day, and a part of my brain is actively engaged in considering some aspect of what it means to be alive.  

This all started over a decade ago, when I had a profound spiritual experience and became pagan, and then later, Taoist.  When I look back at my life prior to that time, I can see the roots of my nascent Taoism inherent in everything I did. 

I also will talk a bunch about what it means to come to self-love and self-acceptance.  This has been a big part of my life too, especially given my exotic, alternative nature.  Don't get me wrong, it's not a value judgment - I'm no better, nor worse than anyone else. I've just got a collection of unusual adjectives about myself, that can make for sometimes uncomfortable, often interesting discussions.  Among those adjectives:

  • I'm polyamorous.  
    Which is to say, I'm not monogamous. But there are as many ways to be poly as there are people who are poly.
  • I'm kinky
    Specifically, I'm an age player.  Lots of other things, too.  For me, this means I have all sorts of sexual fetishes, and that in my general, daily life, I'm fairly sex positive about who I am and what I do.  

I'm sure in the days and posts to come, I'll go on about all this in excruciating detail.  Welcome aboard, dear reader!

AuthorMako Allen