There’s a zen buddhist concept called shoshin, “beginner’s mind.” It’s the idea of approaching anything you do as if you were a beginner. You throw away your pre-conceived notions about how things should be, or even are, and look with fresh eyes on what you’re doing.
I try really hard to practice shoshin, in many things I do.
Lately, with the events of the coronavirus pandemic, it’s become even more important. My day job is letting me, honestly making me, work remotely full time now. I’m super grateful for that. I know lots of people aren’t so fortunate.
Even with that good fortune, I have been wigging out some. It’s pretty easy to get flustered, and then feel a sense of foreboding, dread, and despair at what’s going on. The latest I heard from the CDC is that they recommend not being in any groups larger than 10 people. And that that recommendation and the social distancing isolation we’re practicing is going to be in effect for at least the next two months. I saw a press conference yesterday saying that it’s likely to go far longer than that, into the late summer.
I hear this stuff, and I feel this awful specter of loss. “It’s bad, and it’s going to get worse,” that voice says to me. Not a great feeling.
But then I remember my practice, and it’s helpful. I resolve to be present for how things are. So, I’ve been working remotely and doing a good job of it. I’ve had lots of quality time to spend with Missy as she recovers from a recent surgery. I’m determined to use the time to do some things that need doing, and to enjoy the parts that are enjoyable.
Every day, I reboot myself, emotionally, determined to not get swept up in despair. Yes, this is a hard time for the world, and for us all. It’s a conscious practice to sweep the table clean, and start over like this.
It’s definitely helping me.